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Embracing the Messy Middle: Finding Joy in the Journey

Embracing the Messy Middle: Finding Joy in the Journey
Dear Diary,
This morning I was feeling so frustrated. Frustrated with myself and where I am at currently. I thought I would be so much further along with goals I have for work, home, finances, love life and more. It's been an emotional morning. Fun Fun

And then I saw this term "messy middle". A lightbulb went off. That is where I am.... I am not where I was and I am not where I desire to be. I am in the middle.... and it's definitely super messy. This in-between space can feel frustrating and today I was fully in my feels. Thankfully, I took a break, met with a friend then on the drive home I reflected.

Can I fully embrace and actually love all the messiness of the middle?

In reflection, what would we do without the messy middle? The messy middle is where most of the learning and transformation take place. It’s a time of trial, error, and unexpected victories. A time to realize that each step, no matter how small, is progress. And progress is worth celebrating.

I am going to celebrate more. Celebrate not just the end goal but also the small wins along the way. Each small win is a stepping stone and when I take the time to appreciate it I am fueling it. Like attracts like. I am going to put happy dance energy out there so I do more happy dances! And I can be a positive example for those around me too!

Not only am I going to celebrate more but I am going to learn to love more too!  The middle is messy because it's often filled with lessons learned from setbacks or mistakes. And man have there been alot.... Instead of viewing these as failures, I will see them as opportunities to grow. And grow alot.... I love the lessons, the setbacks, the mistakes.

The journey is just as important as the destination. I embrace the present moment and I am mindful of where I am right now. 

Connecting in community is a huge part of my healing and I will embrace this more. Often, just talking about the messiness with someone who understands can bring light to the path ahead. I am always here for others and never judge their "messiness" so why do I hesitate to share mine with others? I am going to do my best not to hold back. I vow to share my messy middle with my community in the hopes that my vulnerability will help others. 

As I navigate through the messy middle, I will continue to keep my dreams in site. I will journal, visualize and reflect. I will remain inspired. Life is a journey and a practice. I will remember that this space is where real growth happens. I will embrace it with open arms, knowing that every step is bringing me closer to my desired future. It's messy, it's real, and it's mine. 

Celebrate the journey Jill, find the joy and watch as your path unfolds beautifully, one step at a time. 

And to you, if you are still reading this, I hope this inspires you to embrace, learn from and celebrate your messy middle!!  Keep nurturing those dreams and keep shining bright through every phase of your journey!

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Revisiting the things that have helped me most

Revisiting the things that have helped me most

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Your gut is the foundation of everything

 Your gut is the foundation of everything
There was a long time in my life that I did not trust myself. I had gone through a divorce and had other ill-fated family relationships. Not to mention the opportunities that failed and jobs that were not for me. And every time something did not work out as I has thought it would I questioned myself more and more. That "gut" feeling people talked about was non-existent. 

Enter Reiki into my life. During my Reiki 1 class we were all practicing on each other and I remember thinking "am I doing this right?". I was in my head, totally over thinking every move I made. I asked questions and expressed my thoughts and the teacher told me to stop thinking and feel. So I did my best. 

It felt so weird when I shared the visions I was getting. Then when they confirmed how they resonated, it felt so cool. This was the start to healing my gut.

So often the gut is related to our physical well being because of course it's a physical part of your body. But there is truly so much more to it. Your gut is the foundation of everything. Healthy Gut, Healthy You. Mind, body & soul.

The start to my gut health journey was trusting those feelings that flutter in my belly and leaning into my intuitive connection. Getting out of my head and into my body. Allowing the energy to flow and guide me. 

Now I fully trust my gut, my intuition, my inner knowing, whatever you would like to call it and I have made it my mission to help others do the same. It is something special when I am teaching a Reiki class and one of my clients experiences a new level of trust in themselves. Learn more about Reiki classes here

Working on my intuitive connection and trust is an ongoing evolution. Next step for me is improving the physical gut so that I can enhance my gut, brain, heart connection. That's where Amare comes in. Amare, which literally means Love, prides themselves on being a mental wellness company. Improved mental wellness? Yes please!  And this is accomplished starting in the Gut. I am about 30 days in to my Amare journey as of writing this and already feeling some changes happening. If you are interested in joining me I would love to have a buddy. This is how I got started. And with this link you get $10 off! 

Here is to Trusting your Gut!

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A bit about Jill: High Vibin' & Always Evolving Spiritual Mama

 

I felt stuck and so lost.  I didn't even know who I was anymore. Divorce, co-parenting 2 very busy kids, working full time, taking care of the dog, the house, etc.  I felt exhausted and unfulfilled.  And not to mention guilty....  

Something was definitely missing but I did not know what it was and was overwhelmed just thinking about it. I was living in Groundhog Day and I didn't know how to get out.
 
One day, I finally just had enough. I can not tell you what day it was... it was probably really weeks or even months, but I finally started stepping out of my comfort zone. I tried new things and eventually found a community.  

AND, dare I say it.....  I started focusing on myself - mind, body and soul!

And this simple, but definitely not easy, practice of putting myself first (while always keeping my kiddos in mind of course) changed the entire trajectory of my life.  

After years of struggling with who I was, I found myself again through self-care, intentional living and daily spiritual practices. I even started trusting my intuition again. And that's when life got interesting. 

I said Goodbye to Groundhog day and Hello to my very own Eat Pray Love story. I started exploring my spirituality, learning Reiki, sound healing, closing of the bones, I wrote in multiple books, I garden now and even make sourdough bread from my own sourdough started. And most of all I started feeling so much more love everywhere. 

Then a diagnosis hit after my first routine colonoscopy which led to lots of anxiety, so many appointments, a surgery and ultimately quite the wake up call.

And it made me realize that as much as I was trying to convince myself that I was taking care of myself as much as I could and I was putting myself first. I was NOT!  

I truly know now that in order to not only be the best mom (friend, community member, person, etc.) I could be but also to actually live, I had to not only put myself first (not just say I was...) and LOVE myself, truly, madly, deeply!

It is a process and a practice. I am working to take back my power back, focus on loving myself first and making the next right choice for me each day. I consciously choose to raise my vibrational frequency (even if it's not easy) and continue to remind myself that taking care of myself truly is the best gift I can give to my children and the world around me. Life is a practice, we are not meant to be perfect or know all the answers. 

I read in a book once to live the question rather than try to find the right answer and I have been trying to live by that since. To be curious. Moment by moment - Healing, Exploring, Loving, Finding fulfillment in the Every day.  

I am an evolving mama on a mission to live my best life full of love and joy with my family. To continue to embrace my healing, to tune into my frequency & raise my vibe and to share love and positively impact my community.

And I hope that I can inspire you to put yourself first and embrace your evolving mama story too. 

Our energy impacts everyone and everything around us. So we raise our vibe, we truly to help the world. The ripple effect of our energetic vibration is endless.  

Let's raise our vibe together!

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