These words, dated 7/30/23, were found in a notebook I had stuffed in the bottom of my purse. Interesting the timing as I was just sitting down on 1/1/25 to brainstorm on what to focus on this year.
What serves me today? What are the things that have helped me most over the years for my healing? for loving life?
Meditation
Reiki
Breath
Writing
Community
Sharing
Movement - walking, yoga
My Kids
Setting Intentions
Gratitude
Fasting
Sound Healing
Walks in Nature
Sitting here before the Reiki Circle at Tethered and I feel so out of it. I've been in a fog all weekend and really for the last few weeks. Why? Is it the new medication? the new job? Giving up on myself?
I don't do anything social. I hermit at home even more than ever before when the kids are not home. Because money has been so tight, due to past choices I made.
So many choices were made looking for acceptance, looking outside of myself for happiness, looking for love, for validation. Why do we look outside of ourselves for things when we have it all within us. we have all we truly need within us.
Reiki came into my life at a time when I no longer trusted myself - a failed marriage, a career (job really) that I was not happy in, poor relationship with my parents. I felt very alone and was searching for what was missing.
Love
Balance
Empowerment
Connection
Community
Sisterhood
It's always the "right" time for Reiki. Why don't I do it with myself more?
I wrote this knowing something was off. Knowing I had to really start taking better care of myself.
What I did not know was that just a few months later, after my first routine colonoscopy, I would get a diagnosis that could explain some of the physical symptoms and solidified that it was crucial that I take care of myself better.
The end of 2023 was a blur…. 2024 ebbed and flowed through surgery, a dive into physical health and a deeper look inward for what I truly need. What helps me most? And what will it take for me to be and do what helps me most. I jump at opportunities to help others and although I “know” I need to put myself first I often still put myself on the back burner.
And now 2025 is here…. My healing continues. I will continue to help others.
But now, It is my time! It is my time to bloom, to flourish, to rise.
I will help others by sharing how I help myself first and inspiring them to do the same.
So I go back to that list I shared above, those things that have helped me most. And I will practice those more.
For me.
And if you are interested in following along, these practices can help you too.
Cheers to 2025!
