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Going back to Middle School

Going back to Middle School
I always said you could not pay me enough to go back to middle school. Now, over 30 years later, I am eating those words. This mama has gone back to middle school and getting paid, not nearly enough, to do it. 

And it is eye opening!

Back in December, the week before Christmas, I started working at my daughters school as a paraprofessional with the special education department. Yes it may have been a bit nuts to start that week as it was also both my kids birthdays that week, but I knew there was a huge need.  I have a goal to help families within my community and this was one way I could do it. It was a pull of the heart not the pocketbook that is for sure. 

The first day was a bit of a blur but I do remember during on of the classes that I sat in, although I cloaked before going into the school to protect my energy, I felt all the energy of the students. Those questioning who they are. Those thinking everyone is staring at them. Those that can not stop talking because they have such a need to feel noticed. Those that are self absorbed and do not have any respect for anyone around them. Those that just did not want to be there at all. And so on. So many different personalities trying to “conform” to one standard for the class. And a teacher who is trying to help them reach that standard in multiple ways all at the same time. 

I am in the school working from a different perspective than my years as a student yet at moments I am transported back in time. I can see myself in these children and these teachers. Getting all the feels… This job is not just to help these children and my community, it is also to help in my own healing journey.

Please join me as I share my journey as a mom going back to middle school. I will be sharing my experiences* at school, including how these experiences are helping me to heal. I don’t know where this will lead but my hope is that it will inspire you in a positive way.

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(*Please note that I will not be sharing any personal information about anyone/anything in our school system. Privacy is important. This will be purely my thoughts and feelings based on my own experiences)


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A bit about Jill: High Vibin' & Always Evolving Spiritual Mama

 

I felt stuck and so lost.  I didn't even know who I was anymore. Divorce, co-parenting 2 very busy kids, working full time, taking care of the dog, the house, etc.  I felt exhausted and unfulfilled.  And not to mention guilty....  

Something was definitely missing but I did not know what it was and was overwhelmed just thinking about it. I was living in Groundhog Day and I didn't know how to get out.
 
One day, I finally just had enough. I can not tell you what day it was... it was probably really weeks or even months, but I finally started stepping out of my comfort zone. I tried new things and eventually found a community.  

AND, dare I say it.....  I started focusing on myself - mind, body and soul!

And this simple, but definitely not easy, practice of putting myself first (while always keeping my kiddos in mind of course) changed the entire trajectory of my life.  

After years of struggling with who I was, I found myself again through self-care, intentional living and daily spiritual practices. I even started trusting my intuition again. And that's when life got interesting. 

I said Goodbye to Groundhog day and Hello to my very own Eat Pray Love story. I started exploring my spirituality, learning Reiki, sound healing, closing of the bones, I wrote in multiple books, I garden now and even make sourdough bread from my own sourdough started. And most of all I started feeling so much more love everywhere. 

Then a diagnosis hit after my first routine colonoscopy which led to lots of anxiety, so many appointments, a surgery and ultimately quite the wake up call.

And it made me realize that as much as I was trying to convince myself that I was taking care of myself as much as I could and I was putting myself first. I was NOT!  

I truly know now that in order to not only be the best mom (friend, community member, person, etc.) I could be but also to actually live, I had to not only put myself first (not just say I was...) and LOVE myself, truly, madly, deeply!

It is a process and a practice. I am working to take back my power back, focus on loving myself first and making the next right choice for me each day. I consciously choose to raise my vibrational frequency (even if it's not easy) and continue to remind myself that taking care of myself truly is the best gift I can give to my children and the world around me. Life is a practice, we are not meant to be perfect or know all the answers. 

I read in a book once to live the question rather than try to find the right answer and I have been trying to live by that since. To be curious. Moment by moment - Healing, Exploring, Loving, Finding fulfillment in the Every day.  

I am an evolving mama on a mission to live my best life full of love and joy with my family. To continue to embrace my healing, to tune into my frequency & raise my vibe and to share love and positively impact my community.

And I hope that I can inspire you to put yourself first and embrace your evolving mama story too. 

Our energy impacts everyone and everything around us. So we raise our vibe, we truly to help the world. The ripple effect of our energetic vibration is endless.  

Let's raise our vibe together!

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