I always said you could not pay me enough to go back to middle school. Now, over 30 years later, I am eating those words. This mama has gone back to middle school and getting paid, not nearly enough, to do it.
And it is eye opening!
Back in December, the week before Christmas, I started working at my daughters school as a paraprofessional with the special education department. Yes it may have been a bit nuts to start that week as it was also both my kids birthdays that week, but I knew there was a huge need. I have a goal to help families within my community and this was one way I could do it. It was a pull of the heart not the pocketbook that is for sure.
The first day was a bit of a blur but I do remember during on of the classes that I sat in, although I cloaked before going into the school to protect my energy, I felt all the energy of the students. Those questioning who they are. Those thinking everyone is staring at them. Those that can not stop talking because they have such a need to feel noticed. Those that are self absorbed and do not have any respect for anyone around them. Those that just did not want to be there at all. And so on. So many different personalities trying to “conform” to one standard for the class. And a teacher who is trying to help them reach that standard in multiple ways all at the same time.
I am in the school working from a different perspective than my years as a student yet at moments I am transported back in time. I can see myself in these children and these teachers. Getting all the feels… This job is not just to help these children and my community, it is also to help in my own healing journey.
Please join me as I share my journey as a mom going back to middle school. I will be sharing my experiences* at school, including how these experiences are helping me to heal. I don’t know where this will lead but my hope is that it will inspire you in a positive way.
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(*Please note that I will not be sharing any personal information about anyone/anything in our school system. Privacy is important. This will be purely my thoughts and feelings based on my own experiences)