Energy

Dear Diary,

This morning I was feeling so frustrated. Frustrated with myself and where I am at currently. I thought I would be so much further along with goals I have for work, home, finances, love life and more. It's been an emotional morning. Fun Fun

And then I saw this term "messy middle". A lightbulb went off. That is where I am.... I am not where I was and I am not where I desire to be. I am in the middle.... and it's definitely super messy. This in-between space can feel frustrating and today I was fully in my feels. Thankfully, I took a break, met with a friend then on the drive home I reflected.

Can I fully embrace and actually love all the messiness of the middle?

In reflection, what would we do without the messy middle? The messy middle is where most of the learning and transformation take place. It’s a time of trial, error, and unexpected victories. A time to realize that each step, no matter how small, is progress. And progress is worth celebrating.

I am going to celebrate more. Celebrate not just the end goal but also the small wins along the way. Each small win is a stepping stone and when I take the time to appreciate it I am fueling it. Like attracts like. I am going to put happy dance energy out there so I do more happy dances! And I can be a positive example for those around me too!

Not only am I going to celebrate more but I am going to learn to love more too!  The middle is messy because it's often filled with lessons learned from setbacks or mistakes. And man have there been alot.... Instead of viewing these as failures, I will see them as opportunities to grow. And grow alot.... I love the lessons, the setbacks, the mistakes.

The journey is just as important as the destination. I embrace the present moment and I am mindful of where I am right now. 

Connecting in community is a huge part of my healing and I will embrace this more. Often, just talking about the messiness with someone who understands can bring light to the path ahead. I am always here for others and never judge their "messiness" so why do I hesitate to share mine with others? I am going to do my best not to hold back. I vow to share my messy middle with my community in the hopes that my vulnerability will help others. 

As I navigate through the messy middle, I will continue to keep my dreams in site. I will journal, visualize and reflect. I will remain inspired. Life is a journey and a practice. I will remember that this space is where real growth happens. I will embrace it with open arms, knowing that every step is bringing me closer to my desired future. It's messy, it's real, and it's mine. 

Celebrate the journey Jill, find the joy and watch as your path unfolds beautifully, one step at a time. 

And to you, if you are still reading this, I hope this inspires you to embrace, learn from and celebrate your messy middle!!  Keep nurturing those dreams and keep shining bright through every phase of your journey!

School starts next week and there are all these things I should be doing.   But guess what?  I am putting them aside to do what lights me up.  

It’s a beautiful almost summer morning in June and I have spent much of the morning outside.  Watering my garden (first time gardener…. It is certainly interesting…), Reading my book on my patio and then a walk.  Although I love to take pictures of nature when I walk.  And share with my friends how great it is to get out in nature I realized that I often get caught up in showing everyone else how great it is that I am not fully in the moment just for me.  So, I decided to leave my phone at home.  This walk will be only for me and me alone.

 

Well only a few minutes into my walk part of me was wishing I had my phone with me.  I was enjoying all the sites and sounds and thought how great it was to share it.  Then… about 10 minutes in the sparks of creativity started.  I had all of these ideas for blogs, for ways to share with others, for services to add to my business, for things to do around the house.  I had nothing to record or write them down on and I know how my brain works… fingers crossed that I could remember them when I got back home.    

 

I actually thought about turning around so I could document it all but then I realized something.  There is a reason I feel so creative right now.  I am outside in nature, I am spending time with Me and only Me enjoying this nature, no chores being done, no one to be held accountable to, zero technology with me (other than my super old fitbit so I know how long I walked and what time it was…).  It is this disconnection that was allowing me to fully connect with the energy around me.  And this energy was feeding my creativity at a deeper soul level.

 

And guess what?  I remembered what came to me on the walk, even 45 minutes & 4 miles later!  So the morale of this story is I must do this more!!!  I must disconnect from tech and connect with myself, nature & the amazing energy we create together!

What sparks your creativity?  Do that more….

 

Check out the video when I chat a bit about this https://youtu.be/eyl2C5qTzEQ

 

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