#eatpraylove journey

Dear Diary, the What and the Why

What is Diary of a High Vibin' Mama? And why am I writing it?

Dear Diary, it's me Jill.  There is just something about writing. The energy of it. The expression. The release. The accountability. The Realness. When I write, something shifts. Not sure if it's my energy or the energy around me, but there is a shift. Mostly in a good way. Sometimes it may feel not so good, but that is due to some processing normally that is needed.

When I write, I feel. When I feel, I heal. There are definitely many tools that I use to help myself feel and heal, writing is one of them. And it's one that I have put on the back burner for a bit and I am ready to use it more again. It's time to put pen to paper, fingers to the keyboard and express myself through words.

Diary of a High Vibin' mama is just that, me putting the words out there. It's time to put the energy of writing out into the world. For me, myself and I. For my feeling and healing. I am looking for ways to raise my frequency and writing is speaking to me as a way to do so at this time. And I figure why not share it with you in hopes that it may help you too.

Through the years, I have journaled, blogged and even written in a few books. Writing has been a tool for me to process my emotions during some of the best and worst times of my life. Sometimes the writing has been about a specific topic and other times just free writing, letting the universe speak through me. I just finished The Artist's Way by Julia Cameron where she introduced me to "morning pages" which has been part of my inspiration to write again. Morning pages are a free write every morning for atleast 3 pages or 10 minutes. Some days I literally would write "I have nothing to write about" over and over. Other days I felt like I was writing the intro to my manuscript that I will one day publish. 

It's taken me so long to realize that every time I decide to put something out into the world, I do it for everyone else. To help them. Even if it helps me too, I end up getting lost in it and burnt out. Do not get me wrong, I will always help others but truly the best way for me to help others is to continue to focus on myself first. So the focus of this diary is me, myself and I. I am writing to myself to lift my vibe and show myself love. 

The what is expression of my self-love journey. The why is to find deeper self-love and higher vibes. 
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A bit about Jill: High Vibin' & Always Evolving Spiritual Mama

 

I felt stuck and so lost.  I didn't even know who I was anymore. Divorce, co-parenting 2 very busy kids, working full time, taking care of the dog, the house, etc.  I felt exhausted and unfulfilled.  And not to mention guilty....  

Something was definitely missing but I did not know what it was and was overwhelmed just thinking about it. I was living in Groundhog Day and I didn't know how to get out.
 
One day, I finally just had enough. I can not tell you what day it was... it was probably really weeks or even months, but I finally started stepping out of my comfort zone. I tried new things and eventually found a community.  

AND, dare I say it.....  I started focusing on myself - mind, body and soul!

And this simple, but definitely not easy, practice of putting myself first (while always keeping my kiddos in mind of course) changed the entire trajectory of my life.  

After years of struggling with who I was, I found myself again through self-care, intentional living and daily spiritual practices. I even started trusting my intuition again. And that's when life got interesting. 

I said Goodbye to Groundhog day and Hello to my very own Eat Pray Love story. I started exploring my spirituality, learning Reiki, sound healing, closing of the bones, I wrote in multiple books, I garden now and even make sourdough bread from my own sourdough started. And most of all I started feeling so much more love everywhere. 

Then a diagnosis hit after my first routine colonoscopy which led to lots of anxiety, so many appointments, a surgery and ultimately quite the wake up call.

And it made me realize that as much as I was trying to convince myself that I was taking care of myself as much as I could and I was putting myself first. I was NOT!  

I truly know now that in order to not only be the best mom (friend, community member, person, etc.) I could be but also to actually live, I had to not only put myself first (not just say I was...) and LOVE myself, truly, madly, deeply!

It is a process and a practice. I am working to take back my power back, focus on loving myself first and making the next right choice for me each day. I consciously choose to raise my vibrational frequency (even if it's not easy) and continue to remind myself that taking care of myself truly is the best gift I can give to my children and the world around me. Life is a practice, we are not meant to be perfect or know all the answers. 

I read in a book once to live the question rather than try to find the right answer and I have been trying to live by that since. To be curious. Moment by moment - Healing, Exploring, Loving, Finding fulfillment in the Every day.  

I am an evolving mama on a mission to live my best life full of love and joy with my family. To continue to embrace my healing, to tune into my frequency & raise my vibe and to share love and positively impact my community.

And I hope that I can inspire you to put yourself first and embrace your evolving mama story too. 

Our energy impacts everyone and everything around us. So we raise our vibe, we truly to help the world. The ripple effect of our energetic vibration is endless.  

Let's raise our vibe together!

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